like feather so light..

SHIFTED AWAY

2005-11-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody,

I have shifted. I will no longer be blogging here.
The new address will be at www.xanga.com/maglovesyou

Take care.

Regards,
Mag (curiositee)

2005-11-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

i think, maybe squeezed in an entree before i go to bed

hooray!! Dad is back!!
i really miss him alot, but he's leaving soon again
how i wish, he can stay and we can talk cock every now and then,
i really wish so, we/our relationship are more than father and daughter, we r like the best friends ever,
infact i really wish he dont have to leave again

anyway, i got really sick of my daily routine
i dont want to dread on anymore
i do not want to dread and drag till one day i really have no interest at it at all
it is almost 6 months
and there's never a day i live and pass each day without stress or fear
it really sucks to have to endure this and pull through the very awesome feelings even when im out enjoying and partying!

initially my intention was,
put up with it, live with it and get over it.
but i dont seem to be able to get over it
and convert it to be a used-to-be kinda thing
its not habitual for me to feel stressful everyday
neither is it a norm for me to worry about my job every now and then
worst still, i dont get peace during my off days

i really do no want to go overseas and start worrying bout this and that

while on my way home, i was thinking about a switch
maybe i should try the night life entertainment environment
thou i may not really like it
but its still worth a try and gain a totally different job experience.

ive done F&b, sales, customer service, office
maybe some nightlife maybe fun =)

well, it will definitely be highly objected by my mum
thou she allow me to club
and i can openly tell her im clubbing when she calls or asked
but im sure she doesnt allow me to work in such environment as much as she doenst allow me to go malaysia.

im really tired
work itself took up 3/4 of my precious time
and thou i dont hate working there at all
i just do not want to HATE working there.
PS SH is a fun place afterall
infact im still worrying that i will be posted out during the reshufflement this dec
i suppose??

i guess everyone knows Huimin is my best friend in the past
sad to say, we no longer are the best friend and twin sisters anymore
everything takes two hands to clap
i find it meaningless if i always have to initiate the clap, be it.
ive tried all ways to get in touch with her but she had changed
i really wish things could be the same
something might have happen but its still within my ability to stop it
its not about my empowerment or any shit anymore
i will not wait
but i just let it be,
its a 5 yrs friendship but its nothing to her
thus, i don see the importance anymore
=(

Nicholas, my sister =)
he called and tell me he's in army!!! it seems so real until some backgroud "music"
has to let the cat out of the bag
nonetheless, he's starting his MAN training "to be a guy" extremely soon
like 6 Jan 2006
like damn, the moment he tells me, my heart sink to near bottom
no more supper khaki
no more ktv khaki
no more talk cock khaki
no one to listen me laugh and cry
(seriously, he had been through with me during my previous relationship and wat ever problems. he had seen me cried the most time i guess. and everytime he's there WITHOUT fail.) same goes to all my other friends, Joc, Cas, huiting, george blaaa...

after nick, there will be many other friends going NS soon
and I'm alone. count the amt of girl friends i have?
tell me i wont be lonely. (rubbish!)

Curiositee indulgence

2005-11-10T13:58:00.000+08:00

with less than 10 minutes,
while my baby is out to buy lunch
my new skin is up
im so thrilled over it!
its nice =)

dont expect much with only ten minutes of effort

it should be done with all this
not much intentions of furthering constructing it except maybe for the tag board wise
cos the text is in grey and obviously with the black background i couldnt seem to see what im typing
the last msg i tag is like a very good example thou
however i do not know how to get it done!
leave me a comment if anyone happens to know how to go about it!

i have the vibes of clubbing and drinking till high high high again
bear in mind, its high high high not drunk drunk drunk
being extremely high doesnt mean ure drunk!
florence and all are planning for another round of clubbing
sadly, only LADIES allowed! cool ... no more Guys!

ps: i feel like going to the new Zouk!

O's will soon be over!
i will be able to meet my sweerheart and Yami again
party at fisherman Casey? yes? haha
KTV everytime we like
K lunch till wee hoursss
haha

i met my darling yesterday!!!
she's working at CoffeeClub!
dine in and haha she's very nice!
my baby commented that she is more than a sister to me
Yes! i always thought so too.
she's my lovely darling!! love her to bitttssss!!!!

curiositee revamped?

2005-11-10T13:05:00.000+08:00

since ages ago,
ive been contemplating on a blog revamped till now its still to no avail
yes i know!

blogskins anyone?
on the contrary i have not much time to edit

now that i have straight 3 days off
im so happy about it!
but the thought of after these 3 days off i will have to work 5 days straight
its heartsinking thou

how i wish i dont have to work and i will be loaded with free flow of cash
haha okay lets cut it ! its more than a dream!
im like going to Bangkok this december
and i dont want to go there with no cash or insufficient cash
i do no want to have this feeling like " aye.. nicenice! but no money to buy!"
this is crap. considering the rate how cheap are stuffs in Bangkok!
its hilarious pls!

i took a peep at my December's schedule and quite amaze
most of it are covered by my ALs
hahaha quite happy thou'

just realise ive got so much Kivs to do at work
and even thou im granted 3 off days
i do not at least feel secured!
i know ive got cases but...
im thinking if i should go back one day to like, clear it!

Amanda" ur friend's gf is pretty!
haha
anyone wondering who is she
pls take a look at the newpaper ytd
its the pretty gorgeous blogger
clapbangkiss

she is on her way to stardom for blogging
how cool
and of cos Xiaxue is plain jealous!
dare her call herself a blogger?
she commented tt Dawn(clapbangkiss) aint a blogger, she is jus a pretty girl who has a blog.
so similarly im here to comment that Xiaxue is also not a blogger
infact, she is jus a so-not-hot and ugly girl who owns a braggy blog!
look, how on earth can Xiaxue be at al' famous if she aint being such a slut?!?

okaye enough of Xiaxue!
time off-.

"dejavu"

2005-11-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

somebody passed this comment
like, "i do not understand why people blog."
"blog is like a diary, a diary is a privacy and now, bloggers are letting all off"

umm.. this got a point.
however, how many bloggers would be so detail?
how many bloggers are serious in really writing a diary in a blog?

everyone loves to have some privacy and some quality time alone
like me, do you think what i blog i all that im doing?
certainly not
i do not blog down the most interesting stuff that happens even
neither do i blog down the most boring or saddest stuffs
i dont blog the process of making love and falling in love
what i blog are merely something i wanna share in general terms
and its for pple to elaborate, in a good or bad way- i dont care!

In the previous entree, ive blogged that Jian Yuan is my internal colleague now
infact i have met face to face with him, n we are total strangers
just in case no one knows our previous status, he is my ex bf doing sales in *hub now
i wont acknowledge him as a friend, just colleagues
people who dont know bout him asked if i know him, i would say 'NO'
thou it was 2 years back
and to be frank ive long forgiven and forgotten him
but its jus a forgive and forget
not forget and make friends
i won purposely avoid him anymore
but i wont go and say Hi. so ya, we ended our 1 yr relationship pretty badly
and till now, i still think he's exactly what i thought of him 2 yrs back

some friends say, "arent u afraid that he will badmouthed you?"
im firm. why should i be scared? i wont even feel the least afraid.
all these years, all these while im conscious clear
he's the one who had done me wrong
if i did not badmouthed him, and i do not take it so personal at all
i really dont see why should he?

yuppers, anyway work today was cool
im practically dealing with repairs whole day
and i kinda love it
as doing repair would not join my eyelids together (sleepy i meant.)

Joan says that any gals to me is pretty
no it wasnt true
thou i had the habit of seeing pretty girls, i dunno why. i believed its way natural
like when im out with my boy i will tell him all the pretty gals i saw and not once i mentioned "hey that guys is handsome" i guessed he is curious too. why m i seeing girls?
infact the whole centre thinks that Joan and I are lesbians
well, right... fine fine. i have none to comment.
so she asked me to select three celebrities whom i tink are pretty:
1. Fiona Xie
2.Jeannette Aw
3.Fann Wong ( i think that pple who think she is ugly are pple who doesnt like her. and pple who doesnt likes her are mostly zoe's fan =)
So, Tony had exactly the same choices as i do, so goes to HH, and the rest of the guys. the have similar choices like jeannete aw n fiona. so i think my taste aint bad. i think Joan might think that Anita Mui, Lydia Sum, and Theresa Teng is pretty =) *k she wont see this but if she does, im dead meat. haha

sometimes, i feel as thou im contradicting myself.
"dejavu" is a good example. i will ask myself twice, have this happened before or was it a dream? well, but sometimes the things u do seems rather familiar, i wish i could follow all the good ways things goes. and see my predicted and destined future.
*mag (slaps around) ok im thinking too farr...

2005-11-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

im sick again! =(
why
why
why
its not about sick. but its the course of getting sick that made me feel very bad inside.

clubbed the hell out of me ytd!
its hell of a fun!!
evrywhere was packed, DBl-O, Mdm Wong and devils
we ended up at Newsroom bar and head to Devils at 3am till 5am+?
for all u noe im working now (stoning infact!)

ytd was very unexpected,
like, not the usual people and usual hangouts
peeps who were there includes Joanne, Celine, Mychele, Florence, Eliza, Francis, Christopher n Seetoh..
right right.. this is the first time hanging out with most of them after 5 months or so?

songs at devil were GOOD! thumbs up!
Guys at devils sucks abit =/
esp the M'sia guy who approach.
i wish i had a video clip of how Florence and I react (hahahahha)

was superly high but still sober,
got sabo-ed into drinking
the drinks yesterday was alot!
lemon lime, a bottle of chivas and tequila shot!
aww... anyway i didnt drink the tequila shot.
had a sip of it and it fucking sucks! so i poured it into someone's cup =)
will get photos uploaded if im free.

shall blog again.

bra meter

2005-11-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

i hope my title for this entree is eye-catching enough
Bra-meter?
whats a bra meter?
A cup, B cup or C cup

well, its rhetorical i know!
but its from a chain emails that i got to learn about it thou
and.... its not stuffs like NC 16 or M18 stuffs
so i decided since its quite funny, i shall show it to my youngest sister
and now ....

Vivian: jie.. my muscle is A cup.
showing me her little little muscle
hahaha. shes a stunner who does things all along
like : lying to her friends that she is a Japanese and the fact that her sisters(US) did not teach her that particular language. like duh.. secondly she forced me to turn on her favourite song which is also my favourite song. and the irritating part is, i cant hear the singer sing, all in all i only hear her sing. the amazing about her is, during her childhood days
she dont sing nursery rhymes at all.
she sings whatever song we listen to in the past.

anyhow, my baby and i have booked the trip to thailand
YAY!! we are like finally settled and stuffs =)

i had a most shocking experience
my ex boyfriend is working in the same company as me
StarHub!
i always tell cust when they ask me "where's the starhub shop?"
i would usually answer
: its one unit below mdm/sir.
:you walk down from the escalator all the way straight you would see the shop.
i cant believe that it seems so near, sounds so near
and yes, this is the distant between me and jian yuan
and how high the percentage is to bumped into him?

its not the reason why i do not want to be friends with him anymore
its concerns more about how we ended?
in what kind of situation we ended?
well, true enuff its 2 years ago,
but my impression of him is already down the drain long ago.
so this mainly explains why.

i would like to be friends with my ex(s)
infact im still in very good terms with a couple or 2
the reason why i cant be friends with my ex(s)
- either i love them too much till i dun noe how to be friends with a guy whom i loved so much. which will definitely turns out to be hatred instead of love in the end.
- the way we ended. i might think he's a jerk and i dont even want him as a friend.
- we have no more topic to talk about!

please comment on the trip to thailand.
all the Dos and Donts
afew of my friends have warned me a couple of things
and, i think thai is very scary
but as long as i can shop
it overrides danger =)

casey: yes in the midst. Joc didnt tell u how the outcome was?
let mag mag tell u some other day. if u want to know it FAST
meet me FAST
haha =)

that night i met my darling
hahah i love my darling!!!

baby is such a sweet heart!
he got me the nano's silicon case! Pinkie pinkie!!!

anyway these days are very strainful
im dead tired
i cant seems to think anymore
and i wonder how much sleep i need to recover =(

job-hunt soon

2005-10-30T14:00:00.000+08:00

aye.. im getting sick of how my daily routine is like
all jobs that i've worked are all shift work
and i just do not like it when I cant shop at all after work
and all i can do is eat and rush for the last train or cab home
lifeless aint it?

this simply goes to show i can only shop during my off days
i seriously have to leave this *hub (no doubt it has been enjoyable for my almost half a year there)
but again, ive NEVER felt any less stressful since the first day i became a hubber
i mean, i have to worry about all the cases in my hands, rejected cases, follow ups with customer and KIVs

deal with superly unreasonable customer who shouts right in my face and scold me dumb. oh ya whatever it is, im alr used to it
but wouldnt it be MUCH more better if i can get a job who serves very educated and well brought up and superly civilised customers?
to avoid indians i can only think of working in a chinese herbal tea shop
haha but once again, its damn OUT OF POINT to work there
selling chrysanthemum???

so, im well hinting that im looking for jobs and get my ass off *hub
so please intro me jobs if anyone has =)

i dont ask for more
but sometimes i just hate it when ********* blaaaa happens
im tired and i do not want to be loaded with other UNNECCESSARY STUFFS
HELL WITH IT !

i bumped into Sherry and her bf
and the nxt day, i saw Eunice and her BF
hahahah i miss u all!!!
yes Eunice, we must go to kbox one day
SHerrryyyyyy U tooo!!!

whatta bore?!

2005-10-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

honestly speaking, i feel life's bore
jus state down what ive done these weeks in brief summary

Monday: Work and do nothing else
Tuesday: off and go school
Wed: Work and do nothing else
Thursday: Work and do nothing else
Friday: off and go school
Sat: Work and work and work on a f**king busy wkend
Sunday: same as sat

cool rite? so its repeating everyweek
my life is like a repetition to watever it is

so tired now
i feel like SLEEPING BIG TIME

as usual, i never slept at anytime earlier than 3-4am lately
ytd, went out with my colleagues for a seafood supper at cuppage
its not nice, its FREAKING NICE.
i love CRAYFISH!
chat and bitch around. Hella fun la!
right... sacrifice my beauty sleep to bitch around
sometimes i think girls are sucha bitch!!!

Just served WeiLing
right, she is still a bung
cute on thou

late have to rush to skol thou when i end work its already 1/2 hr late!!!!

2005-10-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

im tired
this *** is killing me
straining me
and im drained

like wtf?

now, almost everything is like a bore to me
i felt so reluctant doing what im supposed to do
and what i MUST do
i prolly just want a break, long long break
but i know its impossible
i need sleep but often i dont get

planning on an oversea trip with my baby
was deciding on these countries
taiwan
hong kong
bang kok
and aud just came back from bkk and is alr complaining on the weather, BAD
so that should be out
now we're left with HKK n TW
TW ive not been before, jus afraid that i would get lost but JunXiong is in Taiwan so he volunteered to bring us around
but if HK, its alrite for me just that ive been there before =?
puzzled????!?!?!?

will check out the tix this coming off day

abit of PhotoBlogging maybe

2005-10-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

friendster is so advanced lately
too advanced that i do not know how to operate with the "specialities" that they provide
what a pity
i will decipher it out one day. *trust me
the day may be long time away from now,
but im sure the day would come
(everybody please help me!!!)

i started school today
part time course thou
im a student once again

MDIS unicampus is freaking far
and im well known for being so directionless
then now, im lost at Stirling Road
anyone wanna volunteer to drive me there?

lesson was okay
way fine
but its only the beginning
im afraid in no time, i will feel super reluctant to go school
*grrr

headed to tiong bahru for our dinner with my baby again
very nice food!! haha

my darling and i actually planned to meet today n yesterday but failed
arghhh. i wanna see her...!!!

i do not allow anyone to bully my sweetheart. Get those people to f**king wake up their ideas man! some jerks just dont deserve to be treated nice. nuff said. period

some PhotoBloggings.....

not a very nice shot. but the dim sum is very nice..

so...so...so...Scandalous!!! im only attempting to touch her butt!!

abit nearer, nearerrrr.... (tempted to touch,tempted to touch!!)

aha... manage to...hmmmmm

woah... hahaha.. this is cool (above scenes are meant for people above 16 only. NC16. underage people, please get your parents permission before viewing)

my youngest sister can be so lovable thou sometimes she's a bitch (wannabe)

pretty pretty...

apparently, my sister failed to be "fierce" but again, she's really goddamn fierce when she is angry. wat a Bi*ch rite.

as I age...... growing older n older....

I will some how tends to take pictures these way

as well as this!!

i just love her... (yeah.. .rite. when she do not piss me off!)

my baby and I!!!! he's scary.. ? NONO

finale... the very pretty people. NUFF SAID.

Hope you guys do enjoy. Theres more to go, but little time to accomplish. Seeya

2005-10-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

when im trying to be nice
bad things just turn against me
when i flip, u flop
its so sick when im trying to accept the fact that some indians are nice

no doubt that the fact is still there, Some indians are nice
its still base on circumstances
(pls fucking get it right that im at no where promoting any racism)
i do not want to end up like the poor blogger who ended up in 3 months jail

but just today, this Indi** lady has to scold me a Dumblon
which means, DUMB
so, in the end who is the dumb ass who apologises?
and Indi**s are always the people who ask for more and pay less
and sometimes, even want free
because of one two hour mistakes
they demand 6 months of conpensation
its total fuck! period.

Rainy days are my lousiest days
i just dont like rainy days
and i remembered not long ago (i forgotten how long ago)
its practically raining everyday
and my mood went swing swang swung
hahah watever

ended up not meeting my darling
cos her auntie's visiting
*sad thing, poor gal

oh my last customer was Wendy Toh Hui Ling
one of the finalist from Project Superstar
hahahah
one of my colleague passed me this note
" Mag always served pretty gals. Damn it!"
haha, not like ive a choice????

2005-10-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging since ages
been awhile back

have been so busy, so tired, so lazy
i don want to feel lethargic but just that i cant helped with it

so much things had happen
i do not want to blog
i do not want to publish it to the public
im just too selfish to share
bahhh

i don even see a need to summarise much
what past is past, what over is over
(like as if im really thinking this way, sometimes i jus felt very stress and this heavy feeling doesnt seems to go away~)

been raining today
so cold
so misty
but did i mentioned? i hate rainy days
i always realise that rainy days are my bad days
today seemed rather fine, i mean ya RATHER

piazza for dinner
quite sucky
how can black pepper taste sour.... like duh?!?

still, im struggling through a seriously tough decision now
which is study n work
or rather both

i think the decision is rather crucial be it this or that
neither or has its risk
ahhh..... i know it cant be helped. apart from thinking about it and stress over this issues
and waiting for the perfect solution to this, i guess ive no other choices, do i?
(No, u dont!) my mind goes whirling like crazy. i needa break!

will be meeting my darling tmr morning,
she is such a sweetheart to acc me to enrol.
i love u darling!!

swweeetheart is now so busy. i want to meet u soon la... and i want to make u laugh like the day we met. and last but not least, YAMI YAMI
haha (she will then go.. peanut peanuts)

and my poor baby suffers. felt so sorry abt everything. but baby, hope we r fine =)
Love you !

Holidays seasons are coming
any hols khakis?
Thailand anyone?
HongKong anyone?
Redang/tioman anyone?
taiwan anyone??
Singapore????......................................................Everyone.Go die la.

2005-10-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

summarise...

have been on full shifts lately as malay colleagues are fasting
and we do not have enough manpower
so, i shall declare that im super tired now

went drinking with Bb and the rest
glad i wasnt drunk, just very high
i used to drinkk alot
but ever since, i last got drunk, very drunk i meant,
i quit drinking not because of any other reasons but its phobia i guessed
its only recently the kick of drinking got into me again
that night, i went home alone in a cab and i dare not slp
the moment i reach home, i felt so high, image blurred and stuffs,
flopped and sleep
cool huh!

dad left for China already
will be back in a months time and will be leaving again in that 3 days to Vietnam
and then, thats for long
cried bucketsfull and i intended to hold back my tears as i dont see anyone crying can?
slowly, my sisters n mum cried
okay, now i know im normal
im not getting used at all
and i felt very empty now.

2005-10-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

was pondering should i go back to school or continue working?
i definitely love working more than school
but this job is very stressful
and i need my cert
but i hate studying alot
so how?!?

i wanted to do both at the same time
remodule those subjects that i failed
and work at the same time
but time clashes
how to be a full timer hubber and full time students
quite hectic thou

the worst thing is,
MDIS moved to Queenstown
its so fricking far
i hope they have hostel in the campus
so i wont mind
see the distant btwn my home and school?
very far!!

my bf is living at Jurong,
no doubt its quite near but still.. far from home, closer to peace
haha. watever. ignorance is blissed. sh*t up!

so bored. not feeling well. very tired, very giddy and super cold!
im doing full shift today, and now is 4 hours away from closing
and 2 hours ago im already very sick n very shag

casey sweetheart: thanks ah .. i wil try la. let me learn to face it first =)
yuting: i miss u mei.... haha meet me la... (*grumblessss)

2005-10-06T03:03:00.000+08:00

pls draft me a scenario
i cant think and imagine
i am clueless how its going to be like
how am i going to react
how am i going to face it
what i should do
what i shouldnt do
will how i react affects his emotions
will my emotions affects his?
will my siblings affect how i feel?
will i be able to act as if it was nothing?
will i be able to act calm and strong?
i know i couldnt, but how could i ?
the thought of it now already made me teared

for the past 18 yrs,
ive never dream of such scenarios
and its going to happened in 1 day time to be exact

sometimes, i really wish one day will have 48, 72, 96 hours instead of the only 24 hours
i wished time would paused

i wish, i wish, i wish things like that would never had happened

ten yrs ago, EXACTLY
my dad told me the same that he wants to convert to working night shift
i remembered clearly that i cried buckets full but still i couldnt change his mind
and now, that hes leaving for another country
i did talked to him and i cried
what he told me was, "i will be back"
i went speechless, i have so much to say to him but why i couldnt voice up anithing at all?
i regretted not saying anithing
all i want to tell him was, "dont go"
just two words, and until now i couldnt manage to say it out

yea he will be back, but how long later he will be back?? how long will i not get to see him?

sad to say, i cant forsee how things would be like in the near future. =(

Fairy god mother =)

2005-09-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

glad that i felt much better than yesterday night
thank u fairy god mother!!
ok shut up mag! (whatever~)

oh i received my UOB mini

how do people feel when they are desperate over anything
food? drinks? stuffs? blablabla...
i dont know but i think someone who is desperate would not go and tell somebody that
I AM DESPERATE.
i mean, dont it sound pretty dumb and silly for someone to tell me things like that.
in my mind, i only hear myself saying : "oh, (HAHAHAHAHHAHAH) ok lorh. my problem?"
capitol letter S again!!!!

so sleepy so tired
totally like crap

2005-09-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

I've gulp in the forth bottle of honey lemon
and its still very nice =)

my neighbourhood here has been decorated with lightbulbs in the tree
and i wonder why...
its looked so heavenly that i nearly dont recognise my way home
while fantasizing, i nearly slipped into the drain,
so dont laugh yet. i did not slipped in but just Nearly. thank u =)

Dear Janice,
Telvin wants me to announce that he is your die heart fan and he said he is super loyal.
Why? becos, he told me he got the queue no of 1357 and there are exactly 1356 people infront of him queueing up just to meet you. So he said to me that he is going to wait till his turn, please tell him you are not free or he accidentally or rather co-incidentally missed his queue and pls issue him a new queue. Thank you. Haha
Your Sincerely,
Mag

after work , met my baby
we had dinner at LeMeridien
and then headed home straight
miss him, but gonna bite him soon
cos he said that i wont fit into the drain
tell me whyyyyy? bcos im too Fat? or? grrrrr... hahaha

wondering where to go tmr night
chalet or home or baby's place
Sat i will definitely be at the Chalet la
and manicure sessions with the Ninja Joan in the noon.. woohooo ~~

i had the same kinda feeling which sucks la ok
i felt so insecure when nothing, and i meant NOTHING at all happens
just slightly stress but clueless over what
ayee.. . i dont know how to describe that kind of feeling that seldom arouse nowadays, for the past few months
don worry, im going to sleep now
hopefully it do me better tmr. =) night everyone, my darling, my sweet heart and my BABYYY!!! and everyone...

Mag is happy!!

2005-09-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

my darling came and look for me
haha super happy!! we crap and talk serious for awhile
until we reach the conversation on the Chee-ko-pek
i was too agitated till i hit the queue tab
and then, i realised i pressed a queue
haha

today wasnt so busy
cool cool!!!

i've down 3 bottles of honey lemon today
one of which was from my darling Jocelyn =)
i'm getting drunk by this super duper addictive drink which i first drank only like yesterday.. duh rite?

just came to realise that ive become rather addicted to blogging as well
so cranky when im addicted to almost everything except for....(something) NOW !!!

Jocelyn darling, Thank you Thank you thank you very very MUCHHHH!!!!
i'll keep missing and thinking of you so do NOT worry a single bit okaye?!?
hahaha.. Joc is so sweet la, see how many ants lingering around her?
im one of them ;P oops!! hahha
Joc: help me thank your friend for the comments =)) haha

ya rite,
im like over the moon now!!

had Crystal Jade for break,
someone's treat.
did something super dumb, crazy and stupid today,
pity that someone who went break with me.
wanna know what happened? what have i done?
dont ask me. ask around, i won say!
its really really Stupid! (capitol letter "S" please!!)
some stunts that i did, not frequent. its for this ONCE only. thankew =)

i am...

2005-09-29T12:00:00.000+08:00

i did a major editing on the previous post that I've posted
for those who has already read it will get it for those who hasnt than good
anyway the previous post was so not pleasant due to !@#$%
i've decided to just.... let it be and forget it
see... the thing is i can be angry but i'm nice

i maybe a sinner but an angel underneath =)

who is Anonymous who left comments in my blog?
thanks for visiting, but who are you? =)
initially i thought it was my boyfriend but seems like it wasnt =?

2005-09-29T01:26:00.000+08:00

blogger is quite screwd up. now im blogging in a very crude manner
strange, the web is screwd up- totally!

sometimes, i wonder n wonder, ponder and ponder
like im always thinking of something huh
but infact im unaware so next time if u do see me in such a state
pls do not slap me awake but shake me gently
i wonder why im like that too.

*edited.

its quite hard.
i'm ~~strong~~!!!!! okaye- on the surface i meant.

2005-09-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

i'm so not in the perfect mood to do the perfect things now
like, i do not know why im so disturbed
i've many different emotions in me, so corrupted can?

i feel
-tired
-giddy
-headache
-sick
-blur
-empty
-restless
so many so many...

aye..my sweetheart Casey is getting green green like StarHub..
my darling tag me!! haha

anyway pls ignore this entree. its rubbish

2005-09-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

i dont like ~~chee-ko-peks~~ UNCLES
i swear i will not take a sit in the bus for short journeys,
like only t.w.o bus-stops

this ~~chee-ko-pek~~ "uncle" has to f-ing flopped his ass on the sit so hardly and squeeze his "not very big BUTT'' just to get it land nicely on the chair and he has to figit here n there
and, all i think he wants is to share a seat with me which is seriously dumb
apart from that, i see no reason why HE should f-ing squeeze me until i cant even moved
despite staring at him and show him the f-ing face i had and i made the "tsk" sound
he don seem to understand a f-ing bit
so, uneducated ~~chee-ko-pek~~ UNCLE is ~~stupid~~ not-so-brilliant

so sometimes i think this people are not stupid just that they think they are brilliant

anyhow, gotta return to work tomorrow
a long day ahead,
just hope that it wouldnt be too busy

another thing, Sonic will be leaving to taiwan tmr
just less than 24 hours away,
did not attend his farewell party cos i was sick
ya, so prolly the nxt time when i sees him is one year later
hahaa.. so all i did was just wished him all the best there n bon voyage
Sonic: just if ure seeing this, YUP! for u =) hahahah

my baby's turning in now,
my sweetheart is online
where did my darling go to?
haha.. prolly at Philip's Island already. oops!!!

okaye thereafter,
i shall have not much time to blog already la...
everyone pls MISS ME!!!

2005-09-26T14:26:00.000+08:00

many tks to my dearest baby,
who has been taking good care of me while im sick
so those people who kept relate stuffs to him,
HE's great la k!!

so baby got a pt job at motorola which is just two storeys below my workplace,
cool cool!!!

am not in very good mood recently
nothing that im thinking
but just a feeling,
so this explains why i hate PMS alot!
gives me nothing but troubles. F**k it!
seems like my poor baby has to suffer. die...

my darling is so near yet so far away from me,
her school is like only countable bus stops away from my home
and we've not been seeing each other since the last yoshinoya dinner
and yesterday, i had to explain who is my BABY to my darling,
haha she's so jealous.
darling: don worry, i will still have u locked in my heart okaye. haha

n parents found out about my pay
and sometimes, i just don like it when they intrude into my privacy
i do not understand why they cant jus show some minimal respect.
damn it!
so now they found out everything already and there's nothing more to hide
pls bless me during my next pay day again,
i'm anticipating for the nxt round of Hoo Haa again.

2005-09-25T10:06:00.000+08:00

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okaye so now i've got 1001 reasonS why Jocelyn Tan cant bite me =)
p/s: i miss you secretly can?? for all u know later people angry cos i miss u ah =P hehe

i'm so bored
i had totally no voice to talk
i'm definitely on MC today
so dead lar!! i sound like lao ah ma now. Kill me please~~~~

Is it true that Man U lost ytd?
i dunno how to see the results,
but anyway if its true, it be quite disappointing to know!!
like duh... MAN U can????
if it wasnt true, im gonna pinch the person who tell me =P

Just came to realise something
i have not seen these people for so long and wonder where are they and how are they doing =(
-Jocelyn Tan!!! penguin penguin!!
-Cai Yuting, my loveliest sister,
-Casey, my sweetheart.PLS TELL ME WHEN WE LAST MET LA.go hos also nv tell me, wen ure discharged, u flood ur entree with LESLIE!!!!!!!
-Sin Lok
-Kev (thou i recently jus called and got scolded by him. F*** =) )
-Amanda Hooooo
-Amanda (DHL)
alot.. not i forgot but im lazy to type .. haha

will someone faster go and get married????
attending a wedding is super fun can?
hahaha... whowhowho??????
seriously im VERY VERY bored!!! i think im just flooding with rubbish!!!!

IGNORE ME !!!!

sick.down.

2005-09-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

woah ! my sweetheart actually drag her eyes so dreadfully thru lines in my previous entree
which is simply so amazing
obviously that entree was meant to be something for me to vent on
just look at the way its posted up? god!

ya anyway, things are way better now
settled certain stuffs
quite cool thou'

nothing usually goes on very smoothly for me
now, i'm sick
and really sick
had fever. very bad sore throat. full and now i lost my voice
all evil people will say ive a sexy voice now =(
i shall announce my cell phone is now dead
pls do not call me if you just want to talk cock!

having menses and falling sick on the same time sucks!!!!
ARgHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

thought of mc-ing myself from work
but think again, all the hassles i would have to go thru when i returned?
intranet and everything?
no no i still think i would rather drag my feet to work than to have extra chores to do

quite sad,
no more ktving with Nick next thurs
my sore throat wont heal by then la
aye.. fuc* !

look, ive nothing to do
except to miss somebody who is watching Soccer now!!!!!!!
that person i miss is such a stunner stunner !!!!!

confusion always occur

2005-09-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

the whole of today went ahead extremely smooth

dyed my hair

baby came over my place after school

had dinner together with my parents

met bk together with baby at 85

and so on n so forth

until my mum has to barge in and yup, there goes

im utterly disappointed in all her doings, be it good or bad. she took me like her goddess

and over the issues that we are bickering over isnt worth it at all. i only need her kind understanding as my mum and where my future lies more or less depends on what im doing now. furthermore, what she said to me just now despite explaining the reasons to her why i cant fulfil what she wants and i even explains my ability in doing so. she could hardly understands a single bit, she demanded for what she wants and she had never spared a thought for me. if only i have the ability, i would have grant her what she wants but everytime she demanded something more. c'mon, im not someone who gets what i wants either, who do not work their way up? and still, i wonder why she cant be as understanding as my dad. and worst still, she compared her own daughter with my cousin, this is totally absurdly ridiculous. if only im my cousin, i would have grant her and fulfilled what she demanded for long ago!!! this is so out of point, i even chosed silence to suppress whatever emotions i have. and all she did was to be even unreasonable, its definitely way fine with me if ive to do my laundry myself. I hope she understands the fact that she's my mum not my landlord, and the vice versa im her daughter not her tenant.

we used to be close, and she's like a confidante to me, a person whom i can confide in, like the relationship between me n my dad. but things could doubtfully be the same since im now working.

my dad was the most understanding person on earth! if my mum was half of him, i guess im the most trouble-free gal on earth. my dad was always on my side, and he will feel the way i feel, he would always put himself into my shoes n stand on my position to think before being impulsive. he could give me the most generous advices and lead me to the correct path. helped me thru effortlessly thru those darkest times i had before. this is why im so affected when i learnt that he is leaving soon , i hope i could fly to where he is every now n then, as n when i like just to prevent being drifted away by distances. i did even told him , it would be better if u do not leave, i know im not well versed at all, my words cant let him stay and i cant think of any other ways. i just wants him to be happy. i think its the best i could do for him.

i shouldnt blog anymore now. another day perhaps.

im lucky to have my baby around, else i dont know how lost will i get. love you baby!!!!

2005-09-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

Casey: w/out you life is like not eating yami yogurt and far east chicken rice with YOU!! when are your prelims gonna be over? my hair is turning white strand by strand everyday lah! i found one more very nice chicken rice, at Lucky Plaza all the philipine maid hangouts. so dun go on Sunday. later they kill me, and who knows my head will be at Somerset Mrt this time? scaryyy..

okay, so got my pay today which is amazingly fast and ****
i dunno! hahah happy thats it! nxt month so long i do not get peanuts will do.

got my phone repaired
shopped
walked
ate
drank
and bla bla bla, baby and i got out ipod Nano!!
its another amazing thing!! woohoo...

headed Holland V
Swensening , aww.. very nice!
bumped into James
haha, he's now botak la..
wonder how's DHL doing too. another NS guy'

work was super busy ytd,
so glad tht i had 2 straight off days after so long
imagine how long i could sleep?
haha,

intending to get my hair coloured from ages ago till now
the color of my hair now looks terrible

i m blogging out of senses,
DIE. i shld stop and continue again..

will be meeting the pretty lady soon, TRACY
haha... will be enrolling for RTT, bike prac
cool cool! im alr anticipating for it now !! haha

Casey: after ur Os prolly , tell me again and we can enrol for BTT!!! pls call me soon! my hp is getting stupid n senile without promt fone calls. haha,

indians

2005-09-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

shall blog today since yesterday blogger is down
well, seems like only mine is
or is my laptop down? singtel broadband down?
aye.... i dunno =(
everything is always dying on me!

stayed over at baby's house the day before
den he came over mine
and we caught a movie at TM ( the perfect catch)
not a bad show thou
its much better than the show we watched previously, The Longest Yard
The longest yard wasnt a very bad show, but is a show that i dont understand =(
okaye, im stupid, but im Ms Pretty. wwhaha

went to do a lil shopping
walked around
TM is really a heaven soon
they have many many food
but still, no YAMI yogurt =(

bought the Gucci Envy Me perfume already
wahahah... i like! its so pinko pinko =)

oh yes, tilt your eyes to the subject of this entree "indians"
for those peeps who had realised it earlier, good for you =)
i'm always super duper well known for Ms Racist over the many years, 18 decent years should be
i always think that Chinese are the best
and Indians always suck to core

i mean, dont you realise all indians have this criminal face,
black face, black skin,black dick,black black heart!!!
watever it is.
hate talking to indians, they simply suck my ass
they do not understand a single thing we say, and expect us to understand every single shit they say.
furthermore, they are the cheapos!
educated indians are the fuckers of this society
poor indians are the drama-mamas
when they do not get wat they want,
they will go... "but my mother is in india, v sick, cannot come... etc etc"
looks like all indians share the same story

not convincing thou'
if im their mother, i would rather die than being sick!
i definitely do not want to be their excuse..

not so racist now.
China people are also some suckers.
they can suck my toes l
hate their accents, their loudmouthed kampong mates,
so irritating!!!!

nobody to bitched with so i shall vent evrything here
bear with my rants
im not in a good mood now!!

casey is not bitching with me anymore,
until her prelims are over.
i know her mouth is as itchy as mine now!!!!!!
wahaha

2005-09-13T02:43:00.000+08:00

aye....
seriously by now, i should or rather ought to be sleeping already
but im still wide awake and im working on a morning shift tmr
how dead

previously headed to Eski Bar with Baby
the bar was so cool
best recommended place to chill i guessed
the whole bar is made of ice
and its wonderful la

baby and i did something super funny
we challenged for 5 mins and sees who get out first
haha, apparently i won despite being the super duper famous getting COLD queen! haha

5 mins should be bearable la,
nothing more than that i guessed =)

anyway, my mind is blank now
i can only think of this

ny baby is GREAT !!!!

2005-09-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

after so long,
after so much effort in thinking of renovating my blog
now that i come to a conclusion that i should just change the skin

look, im so lazy busy lazy busy
how much time can i have in updating my blog?
and i know im not blogging
so taga*** here i am!

8/9/05
its our first month anni
come to think of it, we have already know each other for 3 months
get together after knowing each other on the second month! how cool!
thank u StarHub! i dun love you But my baby!
its starhub tt brought us together ! =)

months of exciting stories n the hoohaa btwn me and my ex bf
well well, hahaha its over!
delighted. and kowtows to my friends,
u noe who u are la, shield me away from him and now my poor friend has been glued onto him.
poor thing...

recently Starhub is like less crowded
today is a friday can?
n im working in town can?
how i wish i could snap a pic of the centre...
the queue are like ZERO ZERO ZERO ZERO!

7/9/05

headed to Heeren tattoo parlour
the one i guess everyone knows!
i alr thought of what to tattoo
but i dunno where to put it
so i guess the artist is super nice!!
he even wants me to consider it again.
so being always so indecisive n under the advice of my baby,
think i should really think where to put since i alr got got the pic i want!
sigh..

stayed over at baby's house
watch Initial D
haha i know im way too slow.
haha as all pple say, NICE SHOW la huh?!

still, i dunno who's Casey's leslie ? *grumbles

chatted on phone with her till real late ytd,
but still not at all satisfied!
cos i want to meet u =P

thanks to FUFA
he changed shift with me and now im going for the VERY LAST audition of StarIdol this Sunday!!
wish me luck!!

2005-08-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

i wonder why am i still so busy
after all these while, things have never been less hectic for me

anyways, am so happy that Star Idol was out already!
have been waiting for 2 yrs
anticipating all these while for Star Search
ya, its my dream
but now, im working and even for that (MY DREAM!!!) ive no time for it
which is extremely sad

secondly my dad is about to leave for vietnam once his interview is successful which more or less will be
i dunno how should i actually react to this kinda situation
n how things in life would be without him
see, how sad can things be
and im so stressful recently that my menses had to come twice in a month
i just feel like dying straight

but things between me and my baby are on the verge on having more better days
he is nice, very nice =)
again, he wil be quitting soon
and work will be without him
and, im gonna be SAD again
i hope i can take it as it is
although things have been whirling like crazy in my mind
and i have so many things to think
without thinking doesnt even make life any interesting =(

clubbed at MOMO yesterday
thou its new
and many many pple are there
but i can only say it suck
even Rush is better
the songs are like fuck ytd
and more or less, it be my last visit

shall try visiting Phuture some day again
i love ZOUK but baby doesnt
haha

went to celebrate Kuaile's bday at this tea house
quite classy but still think the tea suck
its exactly like plain water
very cheena la!

oh ya this reminds me, ive many many photos. i must post it up one day man!

so now, Casey has her LESLIE
i dunno who's that
her whole entry is LESLIE LESLIE LESLIE!!!! pls put more MAG MAG MAG in it
hahahah before i get jealous ah!!!!!!

many things had happened
my ex went to my workplace n looked for me
its so bloody irritating
i dunno how to put words across him, its all over.
words that ive said to him has actually set in repitition mode
and he came, he cried, he wanted to talk to me, seek help from all my friends
things doesnt change at all.
if he were to bug on any of u pls enlighten him
i think i failed in explaining n im too tired of it

Recaps on... lalala

2005-08-21T10:16:00.000+08:00

i add a little here
a lil there
for my new bloogie is under heavy construction
and due to time constraint,
sad to say i had no time for it
so lucky this blog
i'm BACK!!!

i wonder if my sweetheart casey is feeling superly well now!
i wonder if she misses me like i do
i wonder when we will meet up and start bitching again, as i said - there's so much more to update you CASEY! and i wanna bitch with you!!

recaps on the past few days
headed chinablack with my baby, Aud n Rave
had pics taken, i shall do the postings soon,
like again - when i'm free

met up with baby n his brother as well as his brother's gf
Pooled. and tried the seesha thingy?
i dunno how to spell it but yes its some ciggs thing but more like some genie thingy
DEN i did not tried it. haha
i got a pic of the Genie like lamp haha interesting =)

2005-08-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

i think i should re-organise the entire blog soon
why? i just think i ought to do so

have the feel of changing my blog again
or even i should!

brb

2005-08-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

Rush yesterday was quite cool
except that it was Technos..
but overall was still pretty fun

oh, did i mention that i got the Anna Sui eye-liner?
its in pink and i guess it was pretty funny
but heck la, i jus love it at the first sight so i got it.

oh yes
Gab and i caught "Charlie and the Chocolate factory" that day
pple who wanna watch it, pls do so.
it was quite nice =)
very fantasy kinda show

met Gab, had dinner at his hse
his mum's Bak Kut Teh is fantastic
if only im less full i prolly could eat all up =)

my ex boyfriend sent me a testimonial
but everything was over
i believe both of us had some misunderstanding btwn each other
like what i told casey, there isnt anything for me to explain,
the reasons are HIMSELF.
and to certain extent, i feel explaining will make things worst

turning back is never an option
it doesnt matter whether feeling still exist anot
but i know if turning back cant bring me any happiness, i shant do so at all!

kind pple pls enlighten him =)

trallala..

2005-08-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

back
seriously i have no time for blogging
am working all day
slogging my life away
but im happy with it

had my audit done yesterday
more to soft skills
and Sandra was infact quite happy with it
and so, im happy with it thou

im off tmr
as well as Sat n Sun
oh, good good

so in HIS friendster, he actually said he hates me
hmm... okaye, so i shant comment anything on it
for god's will
we couldnt be
we aint fated
if he chose to hate me then oh well, i will definitely accept it
for i know i dont belongs to him anymore
i have my life now, im very contented with it

Sherry: Marvin is your classmate eh? wahaha he's my ex schoolmate !!!!

D&D

2005-07-23T10:05:00.000+08:00

woohoo
im in the office now

D&D yesterday nite was helluva fun
but SwissOtel services sucks big time
but wasnt much affected by that

the food is nice
performance were funny

the lady in blue sucks to core pls. =(

many many photos taken
got my hair tied up by Action Salon, its not nice but im satisfied with it =)

will upload the photos soon

intend to go MOMO after that
but the queue is already very demoralising
imagine at 1am the queue there is still f*cking long?
settled ourselves at MIA instead
cool, the pole dancers cant dance
disgrace =/

okay shall blog again

crazy, baby u drive me crazy

2005-07-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

dead beat
but still, decided i should however squeeze in an entry

i wanna thanks casey here
the loveliest sweetheart on earth who shopped with me whole day
did ur mum scolded you?
im very sorry gal..

okaye ytd after work
headed to party world with colleagues
and then to fisherman with david and friends

all the way till 3 plus 4am
*yawns

gf woke me up at 10 plus
and YES both of us overslept when we were supposed to meet at 10am
cabbed down to kbox cos we were rushing for time
our schedules are packed today

headed home and sleep awhile, like really awhile!
met my lovely sweetheart in town
shopped all around
i spent nearly $200 if i aint wrong

wat a hooha!

i bought a tube dress
Anna Sui foundation and the very nice butterfly case
a pair of shoes
a handbag

had no chance to eat yami
next time next time =)
but i had chicken rice

i fell asleep while at kbox
and pple had to laugh
haha
david reaction was "hey, u can wake up ah!!!"
woohoo.. i can i can!!!

met HIM
shall blog about it another day

all day grouchy

2005-07-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

oh i just got home from work, SUpper!
im growing out of shape soon

i had supper almost everynight
i had to eat before i set my ass off to work else i'll be all day grouchy
when im in the morning shift
i ate at home say, 10.30am?
just 12pm, my stomache is already growling
so sad so fat =(

had cartel jus now
im relieved Francis shared my share
Wooo... i'm full
like having supper everynight is dying on me
oh no oh no. i hate being on diet cos i cant eat =(

however, i shared my miserable love story with my colleagues
and they are more angrier than i am
i think, i know im not wrong

will be like heading to ting's chalet later
nick knock off at 2am
how good.
tmr will be my sleeping day
wahahha...

called DHL today
n henry picked up the phone
hmm. okaye he say hes eating mentos
and im eating nothing =(

im getting the Anna Sui collection
i love it
all butterflies

will be meeting Eliza for a hairdo on the D&D nite
anyhow, the sitting arrangement sucks big time
i dont like =((

this entry is abit grouchy grouchy
arghhh...
clubbing after D&D
im in the morning shift the nxt day
pondering if i should really go.. hmmm

Terence got sacked
quite sad
he's been very nice to me noe.. =(
but hope hes doing fine too

backie

2005-07-13T17:06:00.000+08:00

okay people
im back

was really busy, busy.
tied down with work and hardly anything else
everything was pretty stagnant
motionless, very monotoneous
tired was the only emotion i cld feel. haha

went for chinese oral today at Dunman sec
okaye, should i say "i screwd it up"
its so funny lah. i get so embarassed after that,
i knew im done for it.

the cleaner who cleans up my office was a thief
okay, apparently he stole my colleagues money and put both his hands into my manager bag and dig. but sadly, my manager doesnt know if she had lost anything yet. =)
the CCTV showed very clearly, we are rather shock, u c?

im off for 3 days. i should be resting
im very desperate for sleeps now
should anyone call me on the right timing,
haha.. woohooo. i dunno.

intending to open another blog
why? for the very very concerned people whom i dont think should be the ones viewing this blog. so in other words, i will more or less be blogging twice.
see.. this is so troublesome.
still considering.
pending pending.. =)

OH!?!?

2005-07-03T00:37:00.000+08:00

sleeping very soon
its late
im in the morning shift
i shld be sleeping now

short entry will do for the day

went bugis
with Casey haha
took neos

waited for gf to knock off
took neos again with her *satisfied
she had bad sunburnt on her forehead due to bball
poor thing. =(

sent her off and i met up with bk
85 market
haha noodles noodles again

was drove home
so cool
so tired
aww..

i miss my gf =X
will be seeing her tmr again
she will meet me after work and we will go town
YAY!!

shall post up some very nice pictures someday. hmmm.

hmm..

2005-07-02T12:31:00.000+08:00

oh im meeting carol at cuppage nxt wed
to get my hp voucher
im getting Sony Ericsson K750i
yipppee..

my sweetheart is getting my uniform for me
oh so nice
thanks Casey.. =)

im bored
im sleepy
am i suppose to go out today?
haha fuck it. im giving 3 hours grace else i will go out
oh, like im an angel. *smack head

Ruhua ruhua

2005-07-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

i believe my status now doesnt concerns anybody
so ask no more
i'm in doubt too

yesterday was unable to get tics for initial D
since its only left with the front rows, we decided to give it a miss
its no point watching

ive lost a kbox kahki
he's starting school already
the someone whom accompanied me thruout my jobless days, off days
the very nice friend who has a very funny friend
who tells very serious jokes
and made us laugh like freaking idiots

its hilarious! ya know?
we saw Singapore version RuHua
we all laugh our ass off
we indeed had a good and hard time laughing
training our six packs lar!

work today was okaye
i felt very stress
handled dispute customers again, but was okay still
i dunno, im stoning today
tired

headed bedok to help bryan with his month end thingy
see.. im nice! haha

RETRO NITE !!

2005-06-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

im EXTREMELY TIRED now!

but still, i decided to SQUEEZE in an entry

worked
and meeting held at cuppage after work

okaye. its an eye-opener at starhub
there will be a reshuffling and im not affected =)
some pple are leaving us. quite sad thou

StarHub's Dinner and Dance next month
the theme is retro
okaye. dun tell me anything
let me tell ya, im gonna look EXTREMELY awful

i realised, we all condemn indians
all the bad things goes to them
all dispute customers are blacks
haha. just tell me im racist. i dun deny!

i was like a statue at work today
i was doing cable whole day
and i seriously suck at it and i seriously hate it
and, i hate dust set up box. ARGHH!

i placed my name slot anyhow
and anyhow my manager Sandra found it
and she anyhow wanted to charge me $7.50
as a fine
haha.. so wheneever she sees me or walk past me
she will definitely say $7.50
so i asked her to waive it off on goodwill
she did! haha =) how nice.

"XXX" messaged me
and i was very indecisive,
i was thinking shld i reply or should i not
anyhow, it was just a goodnight msg
later on, i decided not to reply
ever since i stopped msging XXX
and after what XXX msg me
and today XXX msg me again, i was elated. YES I ADMIT
but i decided to be firm this once, and let it be.
prolly ignorance may help out

So, after getting my very nice friends to hide my identity from David n put up an act
just only today, HE realised that I was the one
despite telling him my chinese name, getting friends to erased off from the log bk
and i thought i was very smart
but he remembered that its my chinese name from the member card
so, Tks to the member card
so now. i think i can refrain myself from gng Kbox alr.
haha, anyway its him the one who wil help me with the thingy. BAHH..

grumpy grumpy

2005-06-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. was very sick ytd
today was much better =)

i hope people would stop pressurizing me
and, stop adding stress to me
dont claimed you understand me, when you actually dont

im very much disappointed in certain things then in myself

release my burden please.

tired, dead

2005-06-17T21:07:00.000+08:00

tired
lost.missing

i seriously hate someone who is trying very hard to be another person
poseur. you simply dont have the sense of humour tt the other party you're imitating has.
you dont possess the intellectual and you have no fucking feel of any emotions that the person you are imitating has.
jolly well know your age. OH YOU'RE OLD.
i guess you prolly do not even know what shit you are doing when you are 18
your age is increasing, its a pity.
all in all, im just trying to say. BE YOURSELF
you dont used words of your own, don behave like yourself. it really deserve to be despised.

people, im not trying to be mean. but i just don understand why.
tt person is fat and i mean FAT
not baby fats ok. its auntie fats. i cant stand these pple claiming that they have perfect figures.
OH. kill them please.

sinner.

i dont know how long more will i be able to pull myself outta all these
im tired
infact, very!

i want time alone.
suddenly, my interest in everything gradually reside

well. i cant expect for the most perfect,but just hope for the best.

stressful

2005-06-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

eww. i have very nice and wonderful colleagues
from retail and CSC
yesterday was the last day of training for those retail colleagues
they have no more trainings and they're on job today
all the best ya

had a test ytd
about cable, maxonline thingy
i swear man, i hate these two.

very very thank you to daniel,
i copied his paper like almost entirely
even before i like even read those qns.

results were out today
i almost failed.
the passing rate is high
i got 2 qns wrong and one more, i will be gone
so relieved now

2 weeks of hectic training is coming to an end soon
so tiring n stressful (highly emphasize)

so now people know why i love starhub already
innocence no more. Employee plan. wahaha.

met casey
attended a wake
rest in peace, its so sudden i know
fellow friends, dont be too sad k? cheer ups. =)

3 more trainings to go
and no more trainings.
trainings is so tiring..
i cant stop grumbling larh.

oh yes. i love my staff pass...

i wun laugh at failures but one day if you do fall and fail, i hope i laugh in your face.

nervous..

2005-06-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

today, Shirley woke me up!!!
this sweet pie, came all the way with her bf to my house n pass me the pressie
haha. thanks alort!
her bf is so irritating can? he's like forever disturbing me with all his rubbish!
haha, they are so lovely lah
i hope they get married soon, and i be their bridesmaid.
*mag, WAKE UP!!!

went IT fair
sim lim
bugis street
tm
and backed home today
so tiring can

i dont even feel like going
my gastric wasnt feeling well la
but the many reasons why i did so =)

she wasnt as pretty as her photo
she is photogenic but not pretty

now i sees it, i agree with those guys.

caught a movie with junxiong ytd
CURSED
so scary can. haha but was quite nice lah

oh.. im starting work tmr
oh im so happy
oh im so nervous
oh no oh no.
im gng back to my ex-office
oh no oh no
im seeing all my ex very nice colleagues
oh no oh no
ive to wake up very early tmr

okay. i think thats much i can think of
im tired =(

welcome new skin =)

2005-06-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

i changed the skin again
no doubt, i like the previous one more
but its giving me problems
i cant even viewed it myself
so lalala.. here comes, the uglier skin =)

please divert your attention to my tag
look what Casey wrote?
haha, she's always producing that *snores sound that Joc hate
aye.. haha, who taught you ehs?

went out with my cousin and matt today
okay. my very nice cousin gave me a treat to Pastamania
finally, i found something in Pastamania that i will never have regret eating
please try "chicken sausage aglio olio style''
it was recommended by Ivy, who worked there

i so much wanted to watch Madagascar
but my very nice cousin had watched it and start making fun of me
okaye, so i had to lie to him that i had never thought of watching it at all
he asked why
and my reply was : because i am 18. i quit watching cartoons.
**thenn....

him: oh serious? then you are telling me you have not watched Shrek?
me: i did. but that was before 18.

okaye. so i brought it upon myself again
how stupid
anyway, 5 more days, he will have to bid farewell to his childhood and be a man
he have to bid farewell to his very ugly hair.

i think matt and him should have a very good chat
like, long lost friend
and im the acquaintance.
hahas.

went to IT fair
crowded, very crowded
nothing much

im tired.

my bloody mouse is literally dying on me
like hell. everything is dying on me
Bah..

wooo...

2005-06-01T00:11:00.000+08:00

*photos are uploaded under "18th bday" and "Virgin' Reefs"
peek-a-boo! alrights?

headed to cuppage again today
signed the employment letter
starting work on Monday

training at Haw Par centre -my ex office
i feel so awkward now
how how?

anyhow, was very happy still.
i got the job
and i love StarHub
StarHub is my Star
my superSTAR-hub.

met JOC and all her classmates
went Jean Yip to cut my hair
its my virgin time there
hmm.
i dunno how it looks like still
wasnt bad
but i feel ugly
HOW?
i noe im contradicting. but ... ??

Getting a little nervous,
MONDAY.
how am i going to face my ex-colleagues
thou we celebrated farewell on my last day
thou we still meet up
thou we still remain in contact
thou they still call me for a chat
thou..... im still so shy towards seeing them.

ok. im happy.
im tired. im ugly.
im fickle. im indecisive.
im mag mag!

nonsense entree.

thanks, my SWEETHEART CASEY !

2005-05-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

- pardon me. this MIGHT be a short entry.

celebrated my belated bday with all the dearest friends from sec school
- my sweetheart casey, my dear Jocelyn, sl,nick, bk, matt, smoke machine (haha, kj), melissa
(*my apologies for initials, im fighting with time)

This message here is specially written for my sweetheart Casey:

Casey sweetheart. i love you, i so love you larhs ! you came even thou you weren't feeling well. you surprised me!!! (she msg me, and told me she wont be coming. and i was YES! disappointed and lil sad) i thot it wont be fun tt night anymore. she suddenly appeared and i was so happily agitated.) thanks alot gerl. and also, thanks for your cake. its very nice, really. hahas. hope you get well soon and we can have more time out in your very perfect condition. hees. anyhows, thanks alort for today. =) i LOVE LOVE LOVE you!

Casey bought me a very nice cake.
Jocelyn smack my head on the cake.
and i thot it was melissa or sl, so i paste the cream on their face.
later did i know they are the innocent parties..

ktv this morning.
haha i sang "Theresa Teng" song.
haha its so funny la.

okay, will upload all the photos ive taken during the whole bday celebrations.
maybe in yahoo or smth. shall see how tmr.

cya.

thanks

2005-05-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

weee. im legal 18 now!

baby gave me a last min surprised by meeting me up today
thanks to those pressie
*love love

i have one whole list of people to thank for wishing me
let me think in case i left anyone out.

my dear dear, my dad, mum, granny, celestine, vivan, Coco, KaiJun, Catherine, Nicholas, Ivy, Simon, the very nice taxi uncle who drove me home, Ing,Ben, Jen, Jeffrey, Sharon, Junting, Clement, Huiting, Yu ting, Wan Meng, George, Geraldine, Henry, Telvin, Alice, Casey, Vanessa, Jocelyn, Miao li, Stephanie Lee, Steph Quek, Kevin, Wai Pan, Ernst, Bryan, Lawrence, Lay Hoon, Hui Jing, kong wei,shirley(my bloody twelve years friend!!!!), Dai Hua ..

have i left anybody out? im sorry. the very limited space to my memory already. =)

Casey sweetheart: do well for you chinese Os tmr. good luck good luck. u'll have my blessing. and yar, i will sign up for BTT if my job thingy is done. partaye partaye tmr!!!

will be meeting the HR manager on tuesday to sign some employment thingy. thank god, i got a job =) im much relieved now.

will be partying tmr at fisherman. so cool... !

okay. partied yesterday with the lovely peeps
-simon (the another bday boy), ivy, ting & nick

went kster,
the super lousy KTV, i swear and i dont knOw why they like there so much

they bought a very nice cake
thank you =)

pictures are up on friendster. i may post it up some other time here =)

lalala.. happy birthday to simon and ME.. =)

2005-05-29T06:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Simon n Me

crap. look at the time now
its bloody 0616am
AND, not that im awake
but i cant sleep

im sick =(
im down with flu
and thanks to the smokers who smoke in the KTV room
im choking with breath

i cld hardly breathe well
and so i cant sleep.

wat the hell..
grrr.. i think im really very LUCKY you see..?

shall update about just now event, i mean on the 28th
and upload some fugly ugly photos
LATER. i mean, LATER when i wake up.

crap. i think i better try sleeping.
else im really going bonkers. =)

[edited]
an hour odd passed
its now 0734
ok im still awake

i have a very weird feeling after encountering a very weird situation.
i need people comments.

i shant name the person here let it be 'A'
its definitely not love,the feeling that aroused in me
by the way, the A might be a lady, tts up to u to guess

but anyway, its like

during my darkest moment in life,
when im super down
A will appear
maybe this is say, the 2nd time already

my impression to A was a mystery
u noe how short the time was before A disappear to nowhere again?

the first time, i didnt get the chance to know A more
still, a mysterious feeling i have in A
den A disappeared and i just forget it

the last time A reappearance was when im struggling very hard with life
with all the problems
and im very down
many were there for me. yes but it did no help

A suddenly appeared again and u noe, "i cant describe" i dunno what is it actually
and this time round, we get to know a little bit more about each other
and A is starting to vanish again

okaye. i dont even know what im trying to say
but MY way is to forget it again

and wld i hope A wld not come back again
or shld i confront A. NONO! mag,DONT (???)
or what should i really do?
im fickle, always very fickle

but i felt as if A is beginning to disappear real soon
and i dont want to be the one to grab hold of A
dont you think its a mystery even you have such friends?
*reminds me abit of Jocelyn. but of cos, she didnt disappear for god sake
i just hate hide-and-seek

i swear with my pride, this will be the last time.

okay. maybe you pple can ignore the edited part. or even the whole entree.

im lack of sleep =(

happy birthday GUYS

2005-05-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Kong Wei

Happy 18th Birthday Kai Jun

Haha

Met Jocelyn

ATM machines literally die on me nowadays.

i still owed Casey.

very bored

nothing was ever so cool anymore

as i said, the down to earth sweetest thing has turned sour

the very good people had misexpress themselves

the very sweet words became meaningless now

but i still remained.

my entire weekend is so packed

yet i still feel so bored

realise something very unpleasant yesterday

i really cant believe she did this

and trying to lure me away and expect me to divert all my attention to you

prolly ive listened too much

you could have lie to everyone now with your very perfect tales, but i doubt anyone will believed even a single word you said.

...

2005-05-27T11:13:00.000+08:00

was feeling great from yesterday till now
without doubt, there's a little worries
but thanks to my friends who were there.

i got a job
yes, i got a job
id like to thank god =)

its a customer service exec. job in StarHub
the furthest location i know while i was in DHL wasnt that far
so im pretty ok with the journey
i hope everything turns out well =)

im very sorry to Amanda
*she knows what.

the fact is im very tired.
like no one would be surprised why im so awake NOW
i got woke up by ONE sms
and ya, an important sms to Dia
so ok. im returning to sleep soon

will be meeting joc for dinner tonight
she is not having any lesson for the whole day until 6-8pm
so its like funny la

meeting up the girls in Ivy's clique
celebrating both me n simon's birthday on Sat

Sunday- my birthday. whaha will prolly be with my bf

MONDAY- the very very good day i supposed
meeting up with many many friends for the celebration.
and chinese 'O's. so good luck to my sis and Casey and everyone who's sitting for it =)

i think my weekend is packed. cool..

was deciding if i should enrol for June BTT
bcos, ive just got my job and i dont want to request off so soon
will see how den.

happy

2005-05-26T18:35:00.000+08:00

elated that i got the StarHub job.
yay yay yay !!!!

i just received a call from them
and they offer me the job!

hahaha

sour-ish

2005-05-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

those very down to earth sweet things had turn sour =(

headed Cuppage
interview was ok *i hope
i desperately need to get employed, so please employ me. *smiles
met my Casey

*Casey is such a sweetheart. she came to meet me in town and sacrificed her studies. she is having her chinese 'O's in like 5 more days. oh no oh no.. casey casey.. must do well ah! i am so glad that casey is feeling so carefree today. haha...

and i know im the bad one
she's suppose to be meeting her dear friends to study
a call ruined everything.
*ooops. im sorry =)

had Chicken rice
and without fail, our all time favourite
"YAMI YOGURT BANANA BOAT"

looks like things are not going very well for the both of them
i hope they are really fine
as im in the guy's shoe
i know how bad he feels

im anticipating for the "monster in laws"
its seemingly so nice can.

emotionally high

2005-05-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

im so nervous now
StarHub called for a second interview at Cuppage tmr
oh god.

u wont want to know how the first interview went
and, i dunno why am i selected.

i think, im VERY distracted during the first interview
and the very nice interviewer have to ask me 3 times.
"are you ok?"
"are you ok?"
"are you ok? do you need a drink?"

that very moment i know i went wrong and began to startle and talk rubbish
so today to my surprised they called
and im in a very high mood todaye.

woohooo.. pls wish me good luck for tmr's interview.
haha.. thank you

this is hell.

2005-05-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

Man. i tell you im on the verge of killing someone right now
im so freaking pissed that i HAVE to squeeze in this entree
to VENT my everything.

my whole day was so near to perfect
and this barbarian here have to ruin it all with just two fucking sentences

and all i can say is
he is very not well educated
i dun like insulting people parents but i do wonder how they educate their own son
he is so bloody insensitive

and comparing me with your so called Bad Girlfriend is already very bad.

he has to say things like
- " fuck. XXX ( his gf ) and you (ME) are like the same.

oh fuck please.
i hope you give yourself one tight slap right onto your damn thick cheek now
you never fails to get on my nerves
this is your bloody second time

and how i replied him
- oh? maybe you should be more sensitive and things would go well.

like crap
hell you go la..

he better NOT REPLY me. i mean, i dun want to talk to him for the DAY
because i know i may explode and just shut my laptop, get my cell and go to his phone number and scream at his ear drum.

you be thankful you did this today and not few years back
damn you.

who the hell would say this to people
if he said it behind my knowledge, im very OK with it

but now, i think everything lies on him
i hope his gf break up with him man
they are forever having endless quarrels

and i guess after his gf realised what her beloved bf had done behind her knowledge,
she would have give him one hard slap on his very thick cheek and end with a nasty break up

oh boy. i noe im very mean.
but if this entree dun come up
i would be prolly on the line with this stupid fellow now.

bored

2005-05-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

i wanna rent Hong Kong dramas
i wanna know the ending of the very sweet couples
i know in the end the "Sir died"
and ya, i so want to watch it!

the results of the interview will be out tmr
the job with the very good pay
trust me, the pay is even more attractive than StarHub's
and, i hope to hear from Amanda tmr.

photos photos.
i love taking* photos

Casey, we should party partaye party!
we'll go THE REEF once more.
we'll tag many many people there *if possible =)

be meeting my ladies. the Girls to dinner tmr night
okies. im like anticipating
u noe how boring am i now la.
so pardon me

im turning legal 18 soon
just 5 more days
and im so happy
in that case, Casey can dropped the intention of clubbing alone
haha. its not true la. its meant to be a joke.
casey got me. she wont club alone!!!

im happy today but im very bored
thats all'

Casey : i shall update you with another joke of my younger sister soon. its very funny.

okie im very bored now
so the more i carry on typing
the more boring the entree would be
so SHUT UP MAG

thank you =)

Photo-blogging

2005-05-23T03:46:00.000+08:00

Pictures below are the only pathetic amount that we had taken at Fisherman

So, we shall do some photo-blogging =)

This is a very nice mocktail, "Shirley Temple"
craps. i should have captured Casey's blue coral. =)

this is the sweetest picture ever had with Casey. its all because of her existence.
girl, cheer up. u shld be smiling now whilst seeing this lar.

like any days ending with 'Y', im forever obsessed with myself. i wished i noe why.

do i have to like, say more? please refer to the above captions. Will do!

Casey is camera shy! haha

i hate rainy days

2005-05-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

i discovered something just very recently
its not a secret but neither is it something that i like to share
its...
the weather affects my mood and my mood goes along with it
i realised that i feel super moody on rainy days

well, be it true anot
i live with it. *reluctantly

something in my mind is going on a very monotonous speed
my mind couldnt work.

its all myself that causes all these actually
i wished i know what im doing
and i dun want to smile at myself for those sms received anymore
because every smile, there is guilt in it
thou guilt is an useless emotion but hell with it, i cant stop feeling that way

if everything in this state were to happen like few months before today
i think i can be very firm with myself and maybe, happier

something my mum said yesterday affect me until now
she is being true and frank but its my fault that im in this state now.

feelings multitask

2005-05-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

i feel...
-confused
-guilty
-vex
-sad

yea. i have a thousand of different emotions to name
but i dunno what i am feeling now

im very vex over certain issue
im very confused over that
i dunno
everyone is telling me the same thing
and all i can hear is the same old thing

i dunno
i know im very selfish thats all
and go ahead and think that im such a bitch

van: i will tell u someday when we got the chance to. kies?

okies so now afew people noes my secret already
im still vex

met junxiong
was supposed to catch a movie
but very thanks to my mother
in the end we ate and went to pasir ris park
and,
see people fish
haha so nice, its my virgin time to that place
*dun scold me a sua ku.

im not in the mood for anything

2005-05-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

im feeling extremely moody today
dont ask me why
i wish i know why.

like as if im breaking down once more
took so much time to stand up on my own
and now.. *cross fingers

my mind is definitely not working right today
i cant think
like fuck i cant even come up with a decision
oh man. i know im dying soon

im freaking hungry
but i have no mood to eat
okaye but im really very hungry

had an interview tomorrow morning at StarHub
it was the post on an Executive
and i think, i better not pin up any hopes

suddenly i feel like giving up
i should first, stop attending any interviews from now on
but as usual i am damn fickle and freaking indecisive

so. the best way anyone could help me is to kill me NOW.

sexy lady

2005-05-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

i remember one period of time
im fucking depressed when i lost my sexaye lady necklace
i desperately look for it
but was to no avail
until today...
it has been found
inside a pocket of my clothing
so apparently,
it has been washed many times
and im glad its in very good condition still
and its cleaned.

lalala..
now. my damn mouse is not working
and i had to use the touch pad which is so bloody inconvenient

interviewed today
hope it turns out well

many many interviews lately
im tired, very tired

i ve a secret in myself
i know im a bitch
i am a bitch okaye?
nothing is fair
ive always been treated unfairly
i know how it feels
and i dont want people to feel bad
but i felt bad now
im very fickle
im a bitch!

specially dedicated

2005-05-05T13:11:00.000+08:00

so casey thinks im lagging behind
ya.. i haven been blogging
so here i am.

casey woman : ive updated ! =)

life was good bad good bad den good again
broke up and got back
memories were strained
everything were drained
i just want a better life

ok, so im awaiting for the next KTV session with whoever whoever
im waiting for the sentosa trip again, with whoever whoever
ting and i planned to set our ass in Redang island,
looking for peeps to tag along. *anyone?

went jurong east for a swim with Miao Li
okie i concluded. FISH swims extremely well
met with a pervert. pissed me, scold him,~~WHACK~~ him
bumped into way xiong and all of his friend
that fish got a shock and ran, ~~with~~ without me.
so, thank you

i wanna thanks many many people with is there for me
listen to my complaints, my cries my everything
thank you!

-

2005-04-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

CHANGED

i seriously think some people should die.

i'm not mean alrights!

im just being very frank.

the world dont just owe you a living

i wanna fly

i wanna cruise

i think im really into Scuba diving

and, should really consider signing up for that damn course at Tioman

telvin requested for a testimonial

ya, so it goes (oh-oh-oh)

: hello =)

Goodbye =)

haven ate Yami Yogurt for eons.

ive a fetish for that.

had Han's with Casey last week.

suga suga oh so fly!

skipped this, skipped that

exactly 1 more month to my legal 18

*hop hop hop jump jump jump

i will enrol for my driving lessons very soon !

okie, its still long. I'm so happie can!!

END

??

2005-04-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

aye.

haven been blogging for real long- yea, i know!

im very upset
very indecisive and becoming extremely fickle lately.
ive tonnes in my head to think
and, i dunno what solution should i come up with.

i jus think that im the worst alien on earth
and i shouldnt even think.

im very very very fickle

kill me la !

off day 1

2005-04-14T09:30:00.000+08:00

today was obviously my OFF DAY!!!
its not like any normal days alrights!
cos this is is long awaited one.
i waited for 5 days equivalent to 120 hours =)

work has been good
and .................. bad
cos of some seemingly small reason but i did get much affected
but its nothing to you people i guessed. =)

tmr is my last day to study and i doubt i would want to study today
sat is TDMC paper
a kicked-ass one!
i seems to forget every single thing about that module
but this wasnt an issue, i can still study
apparently, i lost my book
so thats the end of it
GOODBYE exams. =(

eww..

2005-04-07T02:11:00.000+08:00

Bumped into Sylvester
He is not so handsome. dressed like some malays
gives that stare as if he wants me to react "eh.. thats sly!''
oh.No way. will i ever do that.

im an unloved child
nobody loves me
nobody wants me
i dun love somebody to past my time.
im really in love. =)

Happie Happie

2005-04-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

Elated that i passed my StarHub's call test.
I hit it right on the first round
wahahha... so proud of myself.

i received Sherry's call this morning. weee...
she scared me by "magdalene ah....etc"
at that moment, i thot hur? test call now? i haven prepared anithing
OH so is Sherry =)=)!
she says im damn slow =)
and im not the only one working la.haha
jus tt i like to answerr your call..lalala

im so tired la.
the shift hours are going to kill me
and please. dun ask me for OT
cos i will definitely say NO!
the songs in the office company are pretty 'not-bad'
it helps kill my boredom, u noe, at times theres no call at all!

*SHERRY: call more ah.. ok? haha den we talk a lil. haha
i let u hear the starhub music? haha

..

2005-03-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

tml is my second day of work
i kinda love office work
but i got lots to memorise
lots of stuffs to noe
n was told, i will meet up with nasty dealers.

ytd my ez link pass (STUDENT concession) was confiscated
n like wat the f**k
i hope she die.
i hope ants will bite her.
i dun like her.
bloody inspector
*im fine with it.

wendy is having a chalet tmr
n im going there after work
i hope i am not tired

i am working freaking early tmr
like, 8.30am
ive nv wake up that early since.... dunno when?

just realised that Sherry's friend, David is Jing colleague.
its so coincidence.
and, Sherry's friend, Ting ting is wendy's cousin.
who else who else?
Sherry is Mag friend.
hahha

casey ! dun be a silly ass lar! HAHA
its true lar.
i had better asked him to stand behind the yellow line before he fall into the track and got crush dead by the train right?
its for his concern lar!

and also, dun run from ah sim.
i think u walk infront of her she also dunno.
she stress la. the school is so big now.
she is still not used to it leh..
like this, i like! i can play around with her
mess around with her school system
hahahahaha. but i am NOT going back!
-nehnehnibubu. =P haha

mm..

2005-03-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

oh. thanks to blogger.com
you f**king screwd up website.
my whole loads of blog entree went missing

don fall on me when im trying to be ~~very~~ happy

when will i officially starts work?
not as in a temporary job or whatever.
but its a job, a permanent job for life.

who wishes for that day to come?
but, it is drawing very near.
im opened to the ugly society 4 years back when i had my first job
ive met different faces. different kinds of people and bear different attitudes

when i was young, my dad often says. working is hard.
doubtlessly, why people mentioned hard earned money.
this is a very good term to describe how hard it is to even earned that few dollars.

i got to different kind of job and emphasis on different aspects
i am still clueless of how things works
i always hates being controlled, but in the society everyone is being controlled either by the ugly Singaporeans or even the pressure on surface.
i learnt that every job has its own problems.
office politics is inevitable. so stick on.

so, MAG. u shld be glad u noe all these and please stop complaining.
now, you got a damn job in the office. u better stop being reluctant to attend work, stop blaming yourself for being too impulsive and signed the contract. jus stick your ass to that "hopefully good company" and start working. don ever ostracize the society again. years to come, you will have to face a stronger pressure. so, SHUT UP!

thanks to Brendan in helping me to get a job effortlessly
i got it and will be starting work on tuesday
will be working as an e-consultant at StarHub
will be working hand in hand with the retail departments, the shops n promoters
its like, the promoter will close a deal and will call us to provide us with the customer particulars. n we just key in.
- i hope its easy

thanks to every one who has been by my side thru my darkest moments.
that girl: tks alot for your advices and you people company tt day. u enjoy ur school too ya.? n, i noe im ur THAT GIRL too. whahaah..
kev: tks lots too for being there. i'll try ok? hahas. chat wif u on msn again till even later. haha
sl: tks too for being there..
joc: thank you too..
**: haha.. again. thank you !

tired.

2005-03-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

-TIRED-

can i shout to the whole world claiming I AM TIRED?
i'm not jobless but im looking for job
mind you, im not digging my own grave
i noe i deserves it n i should not complain anymore tt im tired.

went for the third interview just to get the Starhub job.
yesterday's interview failed.
i screwd up everything. all because of one bloody qns i asked.

bren:hey your interview went well you know?
me: serious?
bren: but u went to negotiate about your schedules?
me:ya. becos ive coming exams so i thot its better to let them noe earlier?
bren: ya.. but because of this you werent selected.

so say thank you to my mouth =)
i wasnt at all upset
cos i think that job is too stressful
so it might be a good thing. a good news maybe?

today interview was an irritating one
baby n i waited for 2 hours just to reach our turn
we were getting paranoid n irritated.
afterall, the interview that everyone had waited for hours only took all of us afew minutes.
isnt that sucky?
well, we could hear complaints everywhere lar. -roll-eyes-

ive another job !!!

2005-03-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i lovee MAVIS to bits.
that sweetheart. so sweet that ants would linger but not bite.

gal, thanks for ur lobang!
i got a job at Starhub
i will have free access to Handphones and new phone lines
part of the phone bill will be subsidised by Starhub and the exceeded amount i have to pay, BUT there will be a fifty percent discount.
so GREAT isnt it?
the pay is damn good as well.

went for interview during my break time today
i noe this sounds pretty crude
but yah. i did that. =)

worked today was pretty fine
got entertained by wen wen
shes so comical. so cute.
we talked about Dai Hua like lots. haa..
it so happens that she noes DHL and han hui tt gang of guys.

will be tanning and sauna tmr.
aiyaiyai... pray for the sun

im tired.
so tired.
oh no no no..
having a ex classmates BBQ with my sec school mates next Saturday
have been anticipating for it but aint at all eager

was suppose to send an email of my photo to the company
but right, im now procrastinating.
wait n wait.. there's always time.

HATE ME PLS!

2005-03-08T12:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my sis bday
so Happy Birthday, gal. ure too young to surf the net
so u wldnt see this. wahaha

im utterly disappointed with practically everything
jus realised i haven been blogging at all ever since my last 'happie' entree
so now, i shall blog more

i seriously have no idea what the hell i am doing
what i actually wanted
where am i all along supposed to be
here or there?

the hours of silence is a torture.
how could i even pulled through such painful situation?
y couldnt someone help to break the silence?
everything seems so plain jane to me now
its such painstaking experience

this may not be the first time im going thru all these shits
but why must such painful stuffs repeats itself?
i dun look forward to the second or third times but why the fuck it came back?

i may appear calm now. tts bcos im sick n have no mood to clear all these
im jus too weak to bring myself up again
so much effort to build up my self esteem
so much effort to stand up on my feet and face everyone once again
everything just dragged me right down to the ground in just a split second
the feeling is no different from losing everything
im numb. i cld hardly feel anything

so anyone who plans on hurting me
pls do so NOW.

fcuk it!

i love love love, so love the song 'Tong Hua' by guang liang
its damn nice. freaking touching
tears cant helped to roll down my cheeks
i dunno.

hate me pls. kill me pls.
everyone pls hate MAG
hate her!!! HATE HER!!!!
KILLLLLL HER!!!!!!!!!!!!

annoyed

2005-02-06T16:38:00.000+08:00

to the sumbody:

if only i don't know the meaning of ''respect'' like you do,
i will definitely treat u the way like u treated me.
if your mouth is full of shit pls shut it up
if u wanna say smth, pls say it loud.
wats the point mumbling to yourself?

for sure, ive not offended you
you were the one who stepped on my tail n provoked me first
i dun care what fucking attitude u have
or what authority owns you
it doesnt concerns me when i wan a revenge.

''an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth''
acting decent and innocent? save it.
i saw your true self.
hell with you lar.
bcos u are fat and ugly
n bcos ure jealous
n this explains the stare.
oh fuck it pls.

yes... this annoying someone is hell of a asshole. acting like some kinda barbarians ?watever...

stayed over at the bf's hse
n right... thats all.
*shant mention. its fucking annoying. corrupted attitudes.

give me some time to forget about the whole bloody goodbye incident.
nothing makes me feel any better
this explains my mood for the whole of yesterday
anyway.. forget it. i jus hope i wun take it to heart.*like real ?

headed town.
bought a handbag.
yeah finally got everything i wanted.
my rm is still in a chaos

getting my manicure done tml.
'Nails in Vogue' rmb sherry told me its the same as the one at TM. blaaaa...
so i'll give it a try since its newly opened at century square.
haha. tampines is so great now.
it has like.. everything ?

chinatown was crowded n oh so packed

my hp is spoilt i guess.
receiving msges like so so late.
im not exxagerating but i did received msg like 24 hours away from the date n time sent.

....

2005-01-19T01:51:00.000+08:00

today is a bad day.
bcos of that blardie bitch
u and your screwd up face
u kiss my ass n smell my fart
u bloody sicko

you made me tear, i make you pay
you jus wait and see
i play to win in style

thanks for those sweethearts who console me
thanks for wiping off the invisible tears rolling down my cheeks
at least u manage to make me smile..

resolutions

2005-01-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

New Yearr Resolutionnss

-mini IPOD
-clothes, more clothes
-skirts
-sandals
-Samsung Smooth Slide Phone
-Oversea trip to Australia =)
-Levis skirts
-Webcam
-Learn driving
-my only wish from young would come true
-birthday
-25/03/2005 our 1 year anniversary
-hair dyed
-fringe cut

i hate raining days
caught with flu
urgh.

pms today while i was in IMM, so damn irritating

went IMM with dearie
watch sum talents artist performance
*thumbs-up =)

headed to jurong point
shopped for black pants
*got it !

ok. i'm tired. have to work tmr. *shrugs

new yr new yr '05

2005-01-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

hereby wishing everyonee a happiee neww yearr =)
i might be late n wadever wadever, afterall its still the thoughts that counts

will be turning 18 this year
e-i-g-h-t-e-e-n can ? i am anticipating eagerly for that day
when babeh is turning 20 in 6 months time
and the two laddehs are turning 19
*sherry n eunice =)

ps: my blessings n prayer to all victims in Tsunami.
today's entree will be slightly long

31st December

right... it was countdown today. headed town with babeh, nick n gordon.
sprayed and got sprayed is what we've been doing

suddenly, i lost track with babeh after i got sprayed by sumone
i cant find them
phone was lagging
cant contact babeh
this ah beng wannabe guy jus got me so pissy
den luckily got in contact with nick, found them n am still pissy
bumped into sin lok n friends
waipan n cliques
as well as sherry n her friends

first i sprayed a grp of indian guy n wished them Happy New Year when no much pple starts spraying
thot it was funny thou
den, i never get much chances to spray cos pple have been spraying me n i dunno why
luckily babeh defended me like so many times

pple tried to scare me by putting the spray right infront of my face
i cover my face n they laugh
right... i noe it looks silly

caught a midnight movie at Cineleisure "KungFu Hustle"
this show is goddamnn good.
its incredible thou
but its so so funny
*two thumbs up pls =)

headed home at 6am with the rest
had kway chap at a market near babeh's place
with gordon n babeh
*lick lips. burrrrps

it starts to rain all of a sudden n its so heavy can ?
headed to babeh house when the rain stops
washed up n slept till 5 pm

01 January 2005

woke up. got his computer stuffs done
had McDonald Grill chicken fold for dinner
its huge n nice. huge sensation =)

headed to tampines
went challenger to check sum broadband stuffs
shopped around

played the swing-like stuffs in a playground in TM
its scarrie please.
it went so fast n faster n faster
got giddy after that

bumped into Zheng Yi but guess she didnt saw us. wadever ?

headed home sweet home

bet the following wk will be a hectic one
working on Monday, tuesday, wednesday,friday n sunday
ok. blame no one. its my fault
cos for the previous months, i onli get to work 1 day thou i gave them a couple of days
so i thot this time round i will put more days and hopefully i dun get to work onli that pathetic 1 day
and so, they grant my wish n gave me whatever days i submit to them
thank you ? *frowns

felt like dying my hair like, again ? haha.

watever, jus hope that this year would be a good run.

happie new yr everyone =)

happy new year 2005

2004-12-31T11:50:00.000+08:00

first of all. i skipped Advertising paper
got a MC n be ready for sup
bump into Geraldine n learnt that 1/4 of the class did not sit for exams too.
n she even said the paper was quite easy.
omg. bless me..

met bf
walked around
had pizza.
Oreo cheesecake. *oh-so-yummy

headed with him to skol and sneak into lectures
its marketing =)
the lecturer was so bloodeh funnie.
as to compared with our lecturers, its a disgrace to even think of them.

slept over at his place
slept at 4 plus.
this is called suffering from imsonia
*heee

approximately 12 more hours to 2005
and so lets countdown now.

i wanted to post something so so interesting about my sis
but den she threatened me of some stuffs n i cldnt post it now
*shrugs

u think u are pretty ? oh fuck off pls.
how i wish i cld reveal to u that u are goddamn fucking ugly larh
so pls. stop acting. i can resist no more.
hahas

miao li is finally back from australia
ohoh.. this laddeh is so sweet. called me once she reach home

will be meeting bf at 1pm
staying over tonight at his place after we had all our fun during countdown
i demand for kway chap at his place.

anyways.. happie new year peeps

lingering alll over

2004-12-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

the feeling that still lingers are oh-so-awesome !
no this no that
felt so antsy all over'

woke up n did nothing
online and did nothing
surf net and found nothing
check email n there's nothing
i am so so bored !

will be meeting babeh later
this is soso NOT boring animoree.. =)

woke up at 2.30pm
slacked a lil at hm
hav this strong urge of getting a hair cut
i dun wan long fringe.
it is soso fugly n godddamn irritating !

my rebonded hair is a whore to me
have to take extra care in case it starts to curl again =)

tomorrow 's paper
Advertising. shld i studee anot ? shld i sit for it anot ?
well, i guess the most i will study a lil n if i cant finish all
i will not sit for it

okie shall go off now
meeting dearie in his skol

bye peeps

happie burfday !

2004-12-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

slept at 4am plus this morning
woke up at 7am
left home at 9.45am
reached school at 10.15am just to see sharifah and the examination unit =(

had TVRP paper today
i screwd up everything and i meant it.
i'm gonna fail a handful of module this term

was pondering if i shld carry on or shld i jus get my ass outta dere
thot it thru
both decisions has its pros and cons
its so hard for me to come up with a decision *urghhhh... !

currently deciding if i shld sit for the next paper

met dearie after his lesson
headed to Bugis
had katong laksa for dinner. it taste so yucky !
weather was so scold.
was shivering everywhere i go.
shopped around n went home

this is all for today =)

oh yes. Happy Birthday Sin Lok.

happie birthday to u, happie birthday to u, happie birthday to sin lok, happie birthday to you..

tmr event ?

2004-12-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

woke up like 8.30am today - morning called dearie
slept again
woke up at 12 again to get ready and all
meet dearie at 1pm- had luch together at his school canteen
went home cos he has lectures after that
slept till 7
and now, not studying still.
i am online blogging, this shows how hardworking i am. -to my blog !

had Kway Chap=
it was nice.
right... recently i jus have a craving for that or always ? =)

despite knowing that paper was tml n not today
but i did nothing to the wadever wadever.
i did not study NO nothing at all.

have to be in skol early tml
had to see sharifah n the exam unit tml morning 10am
please BLESS me. hallehlujah..
hope my inspiration guides me along =)

okie. should be off to study now. make things sounds slightly nicer.
paper is tml. so bless me bless me.. haha

more than words..

2004-12-27T01:01:00.001+08:00

edit on the previous entree.
TVRP paper is not tomorrow. its on Tuesday.
i thot it was tml bcos Sharifah says so =)
has to meet sharifah n the exam unit on tuesday bcos of the fucking damns case.

ive thought of wat to say to the examination unit n sharifah =))
i know i am mean if i say that
but still, everyone will agree with me

jus came home
met dearie went tm n parkway
century square has fabulous goodies.
a newly opened Shihlin the taiwan stall
- the XXL CHICKEN,MEE SUA *lick lipsss

they have HANS too. oh my. i'm living in such a food paradise estate
woohoo...

have a high urge of going to the countdown party at Sentosa
it seems so much so much fun
but i have yet to check out the price of the tics

bought cans and cans of snow spray to take revenge on new year =)
got sprayed so badly on Christmas.
escaping here n there jus to minimise the risk of getting sprayed
some gals got sprayed so badly by the guys. this reflects how ungentleman those guys were.
those indians bangalah deserve to be sprayed
not tt i am racist
but i really think so, cos they are the ones who seems to be more cunning n they are also the ones who kept spraying.hhahhaa..
afterall its pretty fun larr..

countdown 4 more days to New Year, 2005

happie happie hours

2004-12-27T01:01:00.000+08:00

Christmas is over. its soo fun.
went town n got sprayed by all the snows !
went town with dearie, shopped around.
walked around
bought midnight tickets "Christmas with the Kranks"
the show was nice *thumbs up
had Pizza for dinner n we're so full

we hang around after movies till 6am n headed to dearie's house.
we slept till the whole day. till 7pm
had dinner at 85
oh yes. i had breakfast at a market near his place
the kway chap is so so nice !! -i wan moreeeee...

dearie is so sweet. he bought me this bear for Christmas. so cute lar..

this is "our child" teeheez.. =))

this is how his hair looks like after he got sprayed.

Orchard that night was a chaos. so crowded. but so fun..

tmr is TVRP paper. it isnt difficut, i assume. pray hard its not. cos i'm going shopping now n study tonight. this is wad i've doing for the previous paper. =)

to that someone. please realise tt uve turn me off larr. u are no longer a samaritan to me. NO MORE pls. im so annoyed by you, the sight of u jus irks me can ? u can go ahead do wad u have been doing. upon all these, u are jus creating a fool of yourself. puckers ! and also pls feel tt i hate you. please realise it now ! u never noe how thick skinned u are. please thin down a little..

ok. enough of bloggin. i shld be off now to prepare stuffs n shop shop shop. exams is tmr. i know.but pardon me,its holiday seasons now.... lalala..

good luck peeps for tmr paper !!

unlucky me

2004-12-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

someone please realised how unlucky i am.
i haven been lucky AT ALL ever since then *i noe when =)

todays PR paper is a whore.
not only have i screwd up the entire piece of paper.
i am accused for cheating.
like wth ?
i am so pissed off. not bcos i got caught but the bitchy invigilator kept irritating me.
took my identification card like times can
n even talk to me
and this is soo so fcuking distracting
wat a sin.
* i did not cheat ! - today's paper. nods~

looked for Adnan but hes nice larr.. so halelujuah pls !
haha.

*realised how a sucker ive been all these while.

met bf after exams
he kept guessing what i got him
i am not going to tell u BOO !

2004-12-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

so much thing i wanted to do
but accomplish none of it.
this is so me lar

x'mas present for friends.
listed down names but still, no time for shopping
i aint studying and aint doing anithing besides work
i've yet to know wat i am busy with larr

JNB paper tml.
so how much have i studied
so ashame to say - "ive studied nothing" NUTHANE !!!

worked thursday n friday at Perlini's
business was good
needless to say, sales was good too
but we were so BUSY can..
closed shop so not on time
those buggers kept delaying our time
despite us repeating ourselves "sorry we are closed"
they insisted on coming in
those BUGGERS are deaf

the Christmas carols that is spinning in the radio is driving me crazy
its so not nice
they sounds so much like lullaby to me

towning yesterday
was so packed
i cant forsee how it will be on X'mas day

i wish for X'mas to come
den New Year
den Chinese new yr
den Valentines
den April fool
den Easter day
den Birthday ( 18 yrs old lehhh.)
den X'mas day
den New year
tada.... 2006
hahahahhaha i am dreaming.

off to study now.

another yesterday

2004-12-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

another Perlini's Silver day yesterday.
worked n worked n worked
i'm so tired.
the two laddehs are fun peeps to work with.
*dun assume everything is fine larr

Suntec was packed with people yesterday
the crowd in PS were like on and off
some fcuking customer are getting on our nerves
how stuck up can they be.
some are jus deaf or blind larr..

i slept for 12 hrs since yesterday night till this evenin n i'm still freaking tired
i jus wants to sleep n more sleep :)

have not get my pay
have not return my uniform
have not do this n that
fcuk. tell me wat have i done ? -*nuthane

met bf today
headed to sim lim
yes. i need a mouse so badly but yet my fcuking lappy is down
he got his ink n we buzz off frm there.

had dinner.
katong laksa at bugis *yumss
shopped around n went hm.
thats all for today. haha

need clothes
more clothes
need money
more money
i wish i am so goddamn rich !
to get everything i want

/*`__star light star bright take me to the place i wish tonight__`*
sometimes, i love it when kids lie
its so-so naive can
like my sis who lied to her friends that she is a japanese
well, right.. i think its cute
when asked to speak japanese
her reply was 'my sisters never teach me'

we are blamed for not teaching her
but her friends dont know that we are pure Singaporeans lar. haha

cry me a river

2004-12-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

things hasnt been good
things hasnt been doing fine
everything jus got worst.
i finally felt it.
tears stained pillow is what i'm left with..
the pain only i could feel.

i know i'm not alone.

i wanna thanks my dearest for being there for me.
stepped in when everyone stepped out
stood n stayed by me thruout rain or shine
endured and put up with all my nonsense.
*muahs..

scr ewdu pent ree

2004-12-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

a note to highlight !
jordan_tan81@hotmail.com
if ever this sucker ever add you all in MSN, PLEASE for god sake. DO NOT authorise him. hes a damn bloody pervert. showing off his dick in webcam. HEs SICK n PSYCHO ! please,DO NOT ADD !
shameless !

for what all' noes
mag is always grumbling and mumbling 24/7 non stop.
esp to DHL who has always been complaining ! -.-
but, pardon me. i'm really tired. if i dun grumble,i'll explode. u choose =)
i cant helped with it.
but every moment i saw you
it jus starts automatically.

haven been sleeping as long as i cld ,lately.
haven been sleeping like as if there's no tmr
aiyaiyai. have been sleeping for 2-3 hours only RECENTLY
*yawns

i thot she changes he changes and everyone changed
c'mon no one has changed except for you. MAG !!!
time to do some reflection larrr..

-i strongly agree life's like a role play. wat nots ? everyone is acting. be it you or me. adam or eve. thou we don always have the fairytales. but pple are skimming and superficial. u never gonna noe who's real or fake.

headed grandlink alone after skol.
saw Jeremy there so we chat a lil here and there
slack around and get my ass off n headed to parkway
met Georgie and his friend Grace.
slack n walked around.
headed back to Tampines n bla bla bla.
the same routine.
its so bored !

i declare bankrupt !
i'm so broke and X'mas is approaching. can i die ?
i haven got all the gifts etc yet n i'm alr so broke
oh boy, this is BAD ! *criesss

Presentation was done today.
thanks to our Eunice and Sherry for getting it done =) lov ya !

so sweet of Eunice to plan for a X'mas party n she sent out invitation
** thanks gal. no matter wat, i'll try to make it.

the dates coincidentally falls on the same day of my schedule.
all i can do now is to wait n see. *frowns

headed town today with bf
he's working n the job allows me to accompany him haha
saw Dinie. his hair was way cool. i cldnt recognise him thou' =)

everything that is happening now is getting on my damn nerves.
oh. spare me pls.
one after another.being annoyed and angry is so much more tiring den jus not sleeping !

approximately another 25 more days, i'll be able to get my ass out of this political class.
there'll be people i wld miss still..but we cld always keep in touch =)

remodules. remodules. arghh.. no way will i be able to get my ass out of MDIS soon. *roll-eyes

-the truth is out-

2004-12-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

-uvegottafuckface

-menstrual cramps :(

good news.
-i found my TVRP textbook which appear to be missing for a week. =)
~~well phrased~~ know what nots ?
it was found in the cupboard at bf's hse.
neither of us noes why its there larrr...ha.

i can stand sarcasm at times but not always.
spike me if u wish.
there's a limit to my tolerance.
spare me if i happens to erupt.
i will shred u into million even pieces
pieces of me you

got my lappy reformatted
everything is still in a mess
battery flat halfway thru n it hibernates
i fully charged it
so much more for me to be blamed. *play games summore ! (he says) hahha

i'm soo tired.
today hasnt been a day for me
Pms-ing is a whore. the lil stuffs gets on my nerves
its been a pissy day for me.
........ought to be larrr?

walked home cos i missed my last bus
with all the heavy bags, lappy n a hair straightener
BOO !!
bus 21 was sucha a slow poke.
smth went wrong with the bus halfway thru n it stopped for pretty long
no one got down the bus so didnt I. =)
no more buses when i reached the interchange.
blame my stupidity. i shld have cabbed home !

sweetie mummy has been nice after our quarrels
she have not been giving in at ALL
my short term memory brought us back
cos, i simply forgotten abt our quarrels and talked to her

she bought durians. durians. *yumz
she hasnt been really that nice thou.
u wun noe until i feed u guys with more info.

here u goo....
she left for penang trip.
left behind a TEN months fish in the fridge not informing ANYONE
all thanks to my aunt for being super superstitious
she told my mum to put a fish in the fridge for a year n it will be auspicious
the chinese saying "nian nian you yu"
so she did n jus LEFT =)
my granny not knowing wats going on ( no one knows either )
she cooked it, we ate it
i was kept in the dark till todae.

right... they were enjoying themselves in Penang eating all nice food
i sacrificed and stay in Singapore is bad enuff
yet i gotta eat the 10 months fish
OMG !!
i cant helped to laugh after knowing this actually happens.
told my bf abt it n glad that he realises the fish taste awful except for me larrr..

.its late. i aint tired. i am bore. no one is online. no one to talk to. nothing to do.
sleeeeps.. -

nasty confessions

2004-12-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

i wan job.. job.. n more job..
life is a bore. a total bore !
i need cash pls !
mum n dad are still unaware of the remodule thingy so i gotta fork it out myself.
this is bad. *sigh

was supposed to go back to sec skol for some CCA thingy.
ya rite.. i slept at 6am.
woke up at 3 plus. so the entire thing ends at 12.
*gave it a MISSED again. grrr..

lappy needs a reformatte like real soon.big time..
practically everything is not working right !
its so fcuk can ?

why are people so skimming ?
they are the ones who made our lives so fcuking miserable.
those gossip mongers and rumour mongers are a whore !
if sumone cld be so kind enuff to shut them up. it'll be good :)
i fcuking dunch care who the hell u are n what fcuking status u owned
wat makes u think u can and we can't ?
Please dun fcuking take people for granted.

a couple of weeks more to exams.
21 more days to Christmas (anni too.. !)
MDIS is so mean. i SWEAR.
our exam period clashes with 25/12/2004. fcuk !
27 more days to new year. 2005 *nodss

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2004-12-04T03:03:00.000+08:00

Happie burfdae, Geraldine !
*this sweetheart still owes me a lollipop ! =)

finally got this blog semi done.
felt as if there's something amiss but no idea wats that
*under heavy construction

skipped school today.
was so-so not in the mood to go
i hate it when it is PR but still i fcuk care.*grins

my mood has been bad. i mean really bad.
how impatiently can i be
i'm easily irritated lately.
so pls, pardon me.
*pms-ing =(
iwa nnab eal one

this week has been really bad.
projects has been piling up like mountains.
struggling to get over everything.
finally its done *cross fingers

-Jaded.

got back my results.
so much for my happy ending. haha
i failed one subject
none others but Dynamics.
lecturer was a total sucker.
lesson was a total BORE.
not fogetting how much of her lesson i've skipped*roll-eyes

got my hair trimmed yesterday.
its uber ugly now
my hair is in a great mess.
no more rebonded hair larrr...

right... headed to town today.
planned to return the uniform which i ought to do so EARLIER
despite 3 attempts. it still failed. haha

walked and shopped around
the addidas cap and bag caught my eye =)

Perlini's schedule is so screwd up.
work 1 day for the entire week
* no more stars award- fcuk !

oh yess.. Taufik is Singapore Idol.
he's cool. barrr... sorry Sly fans.

like feather so light, i was blown to somewhere else-faraway. bring me to where i used to be-ur heart.